This is my first entry in this new journal I have created. I am currently at work, so I don't really have enough time to say all I want to say. I wanted to post something up here now to get the ball rolling.
I've been interested in BSDM for quite some time now. I have a wide range of interests (of which you will be able to see in my Interests section), but getting involved with a slave/master type relationship is not something I have really considered for various reasons. I suppose the main reason is that I have been involved with the same company for over 8 years and I didn't feel that I was able to give myself to a master because I was selfish in my own way of living. Plus, I didn't think that type of relationship is something I really wanted to get involved with.
I have spent a lot of time on slave4master.com and I would constantly get messages from people in different states and even different countries. It has been nice reading such a wide range of different interests, chatting with people, and yes, getting off on reading other peoples profiles and exchanging emails with each other. Unfortunately I would get popped "The question" once in awhile. That question being, "Are you able to relocate". I have always responded with, "Unfortunately not" due to the reasons I've listed in the above paragraph.
So why am I prepared and ready to sign my life over to a master who lives across country? Good question. I feel that my life has become stagnate. Go to work, go home, go to sleep. Go to work, go home, go to sleep. I am sick of the company I am working for, so that is no longer a limiting issue for me; so I am ready to leave it.
The biggest reason is that since I've met this master, I have an overwhelming desire to make him happy, be there for him to release his aggression on, to have a life partner who can take me places I've never been both physically and mentally. To fulfill my need to have a master control every aspect of my life. To show affection to him, see him smile, and have him wrap me up in his arms as he comforts me to sleep after a beating.
I am going to be leaving my job of 8 years and moving across country to my new home in Colorado. This journal will be my journey of my experiences from a corporate whore with nothing but mundane tasks in his future, to the object I want to be. A slavedog.
I will post here often and get more into where my mind is at and how the situation is progressing. I have not yet made this move into his pup, but I hope to have this happen soon. I'll post more later when I have time.